the unrest within herself

un·rest

  [uhn-rest] 

noun

1.

lack of rest; a restless, troubled, or uneasy state; disquiet: the unrest within himself.

The unrest within herself

when she moves
it never feels big enough
though all she craves is to move

moving
a state of being in motion
and by being in motion
there is change
newness
discovery
growth
but hardly ever overturning

she wants to overturn life
to flip it on its back and
begin anew
she might finally feel

she might finally feel
the hope of a new day
the burning light inside her chest upon discovery
the expansion of her chest into new being

but today she only imagines
these things
lines them up in rows
poising her pen
ready to make the next check